Ask Papa to come to my dream

(photo taken on 19 Jun 99 when S's 5 mths old)

Wed, 9th Jan 08: -

S was already sleeping on the bed and J was sleeping with Mum. I was reading the newspapers when S started to call for me. I asked her to give me 5 mins but she started to beg for me.

Wondering what's wrong with S, I went to her and she's crying.

S - Mummy, I miss Papa very much. Why must he go?

Me - Girl, don't cry. Papa has left us and it's bad for you to cry so often. Papa's body was not working any more. He had to go.

S - But I have not been dreaming of him for so long. I really miss him. Can you ask Papa to come back home early? I want to talk to him....

Me - If you keep crying, Papa won't want to go to your dream cos he doesn't want you to cry. Xiao Su dreamt that Papa told him he's very worried. Papa wants you to be happy and don't be sad any more. Try not to cry and Papa will appear in your dreams.

S - Mummy, I miss him so much. I don't want him to leave us. I really miss him

Me - (crying and hugging her so tightly) Yes I know. I miss him too but we cannot go on crying forever. It's bad for our eyes. We will have him in our heart always and I'm sure he's with us too. Just that we can't see him.

S - Ask Papa to come home. Come to my dream. I'm waiting for him. Tell him that ok?

Me - Yes my darling. I love you. Papa loves you too.